HCL drabble, 500 words

[exeterlinden]

Honesty is Overrated

 

Pairing: Joe/Billy

Rating: NC-17
Summary: If Joe Dick was honest with himself he knew that Hard Core Logo wasn't going anywhere.
Notes: Very strong language, and it's unbetaed as well, so be warned. Any corrections or criticism very welcome, by the way!

 

 

 

 

If Joe Dick was honest with himself he knew that Hard Core Logo wasn't going anywhere.

 

If he was honest about it he knew that Hard Core Logo wasn't going anywhere because he was stopping it from going anywhere. Because he was fucking up every chance they got of moving forward.

 

And if he was honest about that, he also knew why he was doing it, because he wanted it to be small. He wanted it to be intimate. He wanted to be able to have absolute control of the band with no managers or agents or any other bullshit people telling Pipefitter or Oxenberger or Billy that they really should lead the band, or that they were better than that.

 

Honesty: He didn't want no bullshit manager to tell Billy that he was too good for the band. Which he was.

 

Hard Core Logo was pretty great, but Billy was fucking brilliant. Billy was the shit. Billy was a motherfucking streetwalking cheetah with a heart full of napalm.

 

And if Joe had to be honest, Billy was what kept Hard Core Logo together, because he had the talent and the ambition.

 

And fuck it, if he had to be completely honest about why Billy kept the band together it wasn't even because of his talent or ambition, but because Joe fucking needed him. He needed Billy because he wasn't Joe Dick if Billy Tallent wasn't there.

 

Which was a pretty skizo, fucked up conclusion to reach, but nevertheless.

 

Him and Billy had always been together. They'd started the band together. They'd done drugs together, they'd been in bar brawls, they'd been fucked over together, they'd fucked groupies together.

 

They'd fucked each other. Mostly when they were stoned or angry - always kind of detached, only half there.

 

Honesty, for fuck's sake: He didn't fuck Billy out of spite; he fucked Billy because he wanted to fuck him. He dug that queer bent stuff. But only with Billy.

 

And more goddamned rotten honesty: He knew that Billy didn't really go for it. He knew that Billy was doing it because he was in the habit of letting Joe get his way with everything, because once Joe Dick had been the shit, been the guy with the attitude.

 

Because William Boise had been the quiet, unhappy kid with the guitar and the suppressed anger, and he had been the one to drink vodka till he had to go to the ER, and slash his chest like Iggy Pop and wear a T-shirt that said: "I don't give a FUCK!" with no letters omitted.

 

He still had the attitude; he still didn't give a fuck about anything but Hard Core Logo and Billy. But looked like that wasn't what Billy really wanted or wanted to be anymore, and looked like he couldn't bully or fuck or manipulate him into staying much longer.

 

If he was honest with himself.

 

… Which he wasn't fucking about to, fuck you very much. No fucking way. Joe goddamned motherfucking Dick was never honest.

 

 

 

Comments

[torakowalski.livejournal.com]

Oh very nice introspection... very good observations. Poor Joe, I always just want to wrap him up and hug him (not that he would appreciate that in the slightest).

[exeterlinden.livejournal.com]

Heh, no I think you're right. I just saw HCL two days ago and it completely blew me away. Joe Dick is a great, tough character.

[maryavatar.livejournal.com]

Ooh, nice :)

[exeterlinden.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[akite.livejournal.com]

Fucking Joe Dick. I think you caught him there very well.

[exeterlinden.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I think I used three times the amount of swear words in this one than when I wrote Ray *g*

[grey853.livejournal.com]

Very well done. Love the voice, because it does sound like Joe doing a little mental dance in his head.

I really liked this:
"Hard Core Logo was pretty great, but Billy was fucking brilliant. Billy was the shit. Billy was a motherfucking streetwalking cheetah with a heart full of napalm."

Great job.

[exeterlinden.livejournal.com]

Glad you liked it... I stole part of that sentence from Iggy's "Search & Destroy" - I reckoned it would be very likely that Joe Dick'd dig that.

[nyn17.livejournal.com]

If he was honest with himself.
… Which he wasn't fucking about to, fuck you very much. No fucking way. Joe goddamned motherfucking Dick was never honest.


Very introspective :] and a very nice grabble.
And *g* I'm new to HCL,too,but I seem to have got very much used to it,because I just realized how the very strong language doesn't faze me at all anymore *l*

[exeterlinden.livejournal.com]

I don't know why I didn't see this movie before now - I really didn't expect it to be that good... But goodness, I looove the relationship between Billy and Joe - and at the same time it's frustratingly hard to write fic from (I think, so far, although I have discovered that other people do it really nicely, yum)
... And I have kind of a fetish for English swearing, which to me really only sounds sexy and not offensive at all. Yay for being an ESL :)

[daemonluna.livejournal.com]

Oh, ouch. You've reminded me how much I love the incredible fucked-up codependentness of BillyandJoe. I especially love the last line.

[exeterlinden.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I'm very much in love with that combination, too. Wish it was easier to write, I fell like there's so many stories there. *Hot* stories :D

fuck yeah

[kormantic.livejournal.com]

Joe Dick. And this line? Billy was a motherfucking streetwalking cheetah with a heart full of napalm. Goddamn.

Re: fuck yeah

[exeterlinden.livejournal.com]

Glad you liked it! Don't you just love Iggy? I know I do *g*

[c-regalis.livejournal.com]

OMG! ... with a heart full of napalm. I love that. I really love that. I've read the other comments so I know that you took that line from Iggy's lyrics. But that doesn't make it less brilliant that you used it for Joe Dick. Thank you, I enjoyed that very much.

Oh, and I totally get your thing for English swearing. So in this case, yay for being an ESL indeed. :)

[exeterlinden.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[luzula]

Here from remixthedrabble. I like the gradual way things come out here, how he goes back and revises his earlier statements, like crossing things out and writing them over again on a piece of paper.

[exeterlinden.livejournal.com]

I'm happy you liked it :)

...like crossing things out and writing them over again on a piece of paper. - that could actually be a neat format for a story, using strikethrough, maybe... hmmmm *ponders*

Thank you!